(Aside from our kittycat, Winello, yeah he’s the one on the sidebar, I got a new reader!)
Most of you will say no.
Or your boss probably came across your blog or actually follows it but he or she doesn’t tell you.
And what about my boss? He does! I still can’t believe how it happened. Anyway, I was overwhelmed, uncomfortable, flattered, panicking rolled into one when I learned about it. My first reaction inside my head was “oh no, I need to review all the posts in my archives, I need to edit, I need to delete this and that, I need to write my succeeding posts in Filipino, I need to do this, I need to do that!” But in the end, I realized that I don’t need to change anything. The thought of deleting any post, even my crazy phase of addiction with vampires and wolves and my boohoooos, absolutely pained me. I have my surprising and imperfect side and I’m proud of it.
When I started blogging, I didn’t have a particular reader in my mind. I was just enjoying talking in this space and I still do. Simple mechanics: enjoy the process, be credible, unwind, be myself, and again — enjoy it. Hence, to do a major edit would be a mistake because that would be no fun anymore. So unreal. To be found out will always be a probability. And I guess I’m just so lucky that I have not written anything that will make me say once my blog is found out that “oh no, I’m dead!” I remember mentioning in one of my posts that I try not to blog when I’m at my highest high or lowest low.
I think it’s understandably awkward at the moment. But I chose to be “me”, so hey boss (yes, I’m talking to you hahahaha), I have another name, i.e. witsandnuts, I love my job (ehem!), I was a hardcore Twilight fanatic, I love taking photos of food, I love to eat (as if it’s not obvious!), when I do my reports I sometimes pysche myself that I’m drafting a blog entry and it really helps, and I love so many things!!!
While I still feel uneasy at the moment, like someone’s policing me, and who knows there are more out there hahahaha, I am happy to be me.